We all have days where everything seems to be going wrong. Kids act up, you misintrepret something your spouse said, and the next thing you know, everything sets you off. That's how it was for me today. It's only 1 in the afternoon and I'm in a terrible mood. It's been like this for awhile and I finally made an appointment with our family doctor. Our conclusion: I need an anti-depressant and our kid needs help.
This is Damien. He will be 2 1/2 in a couple months. He loves Lightning McQueen and Thomas the train. He also loves to be outside. Just by looking at him, you would never guess that something is wrong. But what that something is, we don't know.
When Damien was 14 months, he got an ear infection. But this ear infection could not be killed with an antibiotic. We tried every antibiotic and even resorted to the steroid shots. Nothing worked and it was sad to see him not be himself. This went on for 6 months. Some have asked why we didn't do anything. Actually, when the antibiotic wasn't working, we scheduled an appointment to see the ENT. But they were so busy, they couldn't get us in for months. Finally, after 5 months of this, our pediatrition called the ENT ten times in one day and got us in that afternoon. The result- he needed emergency surgery for tubes and when the doctor came out to tell me about the surgery, he said they were the worst he has ever seen. His ear drums were almost ruptured.

Our pediatrition said that we should notice a big change in Damien and that he should start talking like crazy, but he didn't. When we moved to Idaho, our doctor referred him to a speech therapist. Damien was evaluated and was 10 months behind in his speech. He was compared to a 14 month old in both speech and thinking. This broke my heart.
Since then, Damien has been going to speech twice a week and he loves his therapist. But it was very hard on me to take Damien twice a week to therapy, Kayleigh once a week, and Brody to physical therapy, while still doing my duties as a wife and mom. Idaho has a program for children 0-3 where therapists will come to the home and get the help they need. I was referred to that for Brody and inquired about Damien also receiving these services.
Damien's test results came in a few days ago, and while he is 28 months, he has a 10 month delay in expressive communication (talking), a 7 month delay in attention and memory and a 6 month delay in self-care. He also failed his hearing test in one ear.
But these past few months, he's also been having numerous meltdowns a day, some over nothing. Going to church, going for a walk, going to a playground, those types of things send him over the edge. This is what's bothering me. He can't communicate to me to tell me what's wrong. I try to guess but that just ends up frustrating both of us. And he only wants me, not dad.
My sister in law has been a huge help and has let me vent to her countless times. Her boys have a sensory disorder and after seeing how they act, we've noticed that Damien kinda acts that way too. So I filled out paper work to get him looked at by an occupational therapist. And our doctor wants him to see a child psychiatrist to see if they can pinpoint a problem.
I'm just tired sad. I wish I could help my little guy more, but I don't know how.
I logged on to pinterest to look for some things on sensory disorders and saw this-
I need to remember that. I need to know that things will get better and that Christ won't give me more than what I can't handle.